Long time no speak, well in blog terms.
How has the end of summer holidays, start of the school year transition gone in your home? for my Aussie readers anyway, otherwise, just … hows it going?
Life has been a little stressful in the Stuff With Thing house. Annie has dived back into the school routine with joy, she is putting her hand up for everything and loving being back with her friends and teachers. I’m so grateful, because for a while there things were worrying.
Heidi… has not transitioned so well. We’ve had a gradual regression over the summer holidays that I thought she would bounce back from once school and routine started.
Not so much. The regression accelerated.
She mostly holds it together at school, just, falling apart as soon as she is safely with me.
Even with all the visual aids, schedules, prompts and time outs I can provide at home she is struggling. The effort of holding it together at school takes everything out of her.
Things we worked on for years, progress we had made has all been forgotten, back to square 1 we go.
Its week 3 and the early pick ups have started already, the exhaustion induced tear storms. The sleep walking, the just not sleeping, the early waking.
In the meantime there is more money leaking out, therapists, bills and I was hoping to find a job. But how do you work around all the appointments, the early pick ups, the sheer lack of sleep.
I spent the weekend in bed, sick, vomiting, dizzy. All week I’d been fighting off the facial numbness that precedes my atypical migraines. Hoping if I could just get some sleep things would be better. Instead I crashed in a heap.
Honestly I don’t know where to go from here. We have to pay the bills somehow, so I have to find a job. My daughter is falling to pieces before our eyes, isn’t her health and well being my priority… but then so is feeding her, keeping a roof over her head.
Round and round in circles my brain goes as I try to work out what to do.